Tuesday, September 30, 2014

Seeking the Kingdom First and Discipline

 I am so tired of running my own life. The older I get it becomes CRYSTAL CLEAR to me that whenever I try to take charge of the life gifted to me; the results of gratification are temporary. The satisfaction burns out after the first 3 months, maybe 6 months if I'm LUCKY............ and luck has a VERY strange way of making my joy a priority of longetivity. And this goes for pretty much every area of my life--WORK, FINANCES, SHOPPING, LIFESTYLE, RELATIONSHIPS, ETC...I truly believe it was because I never took out the time to stop and ask God: What do you want me to do? What do you want from me? How do you want me to spend my money? How do you want me to live my life? What relationships do you want me to have or maintain...I could go on and on. I have been so busy trying to things my way without getting the wise counsel that I need from God. Sometimes I find it hard to hear from him or I second guess what it being instructed of me.  If I am unclear then I know I NEED to spend more time in his word and prayer; so things can be revealed to me without room for doubt. Galatians 5:16--Trust in the Lord at all times and do not lean on your own understanding.

How God Speaks to Me
I am working on hearing from God. I am also learning how God speaks to me. I have discovered that God speaks mostly to me through prayer and dreams, but mostly through prayer. If he puts something on my heart it usually shows up as a cluster of thoughts while I am quiet during my prayer time. If he is trying to spell something out to me or warn me he will give me dreams that I need to interpret. Sometimes these dreams are a string of visions with people randomly participating in outlandish events that make ABSOLUTELY NO SENSE. But he gave them to me for a reason and somewhere in that cloudy vision there are significant details and symbolism of instructions. If those dreams are ignored he continues to give them to me OVER and OVER. Eventually I will say, "okay God I get the point...you need me to do this."
He also introduces me to people who have the anointing and purpose to give me knowledge of what God intended for me to know. Those people are my favorite.

Discipline plays a HUGE Role
I want to SEEK GOD AND HIS KINGDOM FIRST before I do anything else in my life, so I am making an effort to make him a priority. As I put forth this effort to seek God first, I discovered that takes discipline. It takes to discipline to quiet yourself down and just get on your knees before him and hear him out. It takes discipline to listen. It takes discipline to consult him about your strongholds and no one else. It takes discipline to wake up in the morning and worship him and read the bible. It takes discipline to listen to his messengers during a workout instead of listening to music that may distract you. It takes discipline to remove all distraction that interfere with your precious time with the Lord. It takes discipline to want make him priority because HE SHOULD BE A PRIORITY not because you feel obligated or want something from him. It takes discipline to really want to get to know him.

What I want
I am currently working on having discipline in my life. It is the one thing that I am asking God to give me, because I believe that discipline is the key to many problems in life.

Hebrews 12:11--For the moment all discipline seems painful rather than pleasant, but later it yields the peaceful fruit of righteousness to those who have been trained by it.

I long for discipline so I can have the BURNING DESIRE to seek God and his Kingdom FIRST. I don't want to figure life out on my own anymore because it yields no permanent rewards. I want the life and everlasting joy God intended for me to have.


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